Wearing the Mask

I wear a mask
and no one knows
what's really happening
inside my mind
inside my soul

I'm forced to wear this mask
I'd rather be free
to show the real me
but it hurts too much
I don't think I could bear the pain

Why do I wear this mask that imprisons
why do I suffer through life
when all I need to do is vent
the feelings inside that hurt me
the feelings that don't go away

I wear the mask to hide myself
from the cruel world
from all the pain and suffering
I've grown to know so well
So I wear the mask

Rebuilding

Meeting new people
making new friends
feeling like a stranger
looking down hallways
that never end

Staring at the clock
trying not to dose off
doodling sketches
dreaming of being
anywhere but here

Eating lunch
with your friends
the food is gross
but the conversation
is all good

Hanging out
after school
in the parking lot
is now cool
since you have a car

Going on dates
with good lookin guys
friends get pushed aside
because he's more important
than they are

Breakin up
is hard
especially when
you ditched your friends
so now there's no one

Repairing relationships
used to be easier
than asking for forgiveness
but you burnt the bridge
and it's time to rebuild

Listening to Him

Listening to Him
Hearing the laughter of a friend
Feeling the love around you
Sensing it soon will end

Listening to a song
Hearing the voice of an angel
Feeling the flow of the music
Sensing nothing can go wrong

Listening to him play
Hearing the song of love
Feeling the chords in the music
Sensing safety in it all

Listening for the song
Hearing nothing but silence
Feeling empty and broken
Sensing it's all over

Listening for a voice
Hearing voices, but none his
Feeling alone and distant
Sensing nothing but pain

Listening to the pain
Hearing it all around you
Feeling the sorrow of all
Sensing the hurt in the world

Listening to Him
Hearing His voice
Feeling His love
Sensing His power
Knowing He's real