Living for tomorrow

Have you ever feared for someone's life
That feeling in your throat when it doesn't even help to cry
When your life isn't the most important thing in the world
You realize your life's never worth more than someone else's
You begin to pray like there's no tomorrow
But really you're praying for a tommorrow like yesterday
When you finally get the answer you want, God disappears
He disappears from your life as if he had never been there to begin with
But don't just forget about the miracles he has blessed you with
Tell others about them, but don't forget about them yourself
When you have the chance, tell someone about him
You never know who you might save.

You "Just Do It"

You all look the same in your preppy little clothes
With brand names knit on by children you've never met
You have cars that would put kids through college
Kids who don't have enough money for Prom
Your friends haven't always been your friends
You hang out with them because they're "cool"
They go to parties with you where you don't know anyone
But you act like you know them so they don't make you leave
They drink beer with you so you're not the only one acting stupid
Plus, they like beer, it lets them escape their problems
They get you the drugs you need from week to week
And if you don't do them, you know someone who does
You do everything with the masses
because that way you don't have to think about it

How does it Feel

How does it feel
when a friend betrays you
when they tell you the truth?
How do you take it
when they point out your flaws?
How can you stand it
when they see you
like everyone else?

How do you keep in
all the emotions that you feel
when everyone laughs
or points, or whispers
because you’re not cool
or skinny or perfect?
Why do they care
about what you look like
but not care
about how you feel?

How do you not cry
when they’re mean and cruel
and they want you to crack?
How do you keep
from running away
from feelings that seem to attack?

Why don’t they understand
that you’re not perfect
and you can’t do everything?
Why do they insist
on making you hurt
on causing you pain
when they can’t stand it themselves?

Wearing the Mask

I wear a mask
and no one knows
what's really happening
inside my mind
inside my soul

I'm forced to wear this mask
I'd rather be free
to show the real me
but it hurts too much
I don't think I could bear the pain

Why do I wear this mask that imprisons
why do I suffer through life
when all I need to do is vent
the feelings inside that hurt me
the feelings that don't go away

I wear the mask to hide myself
from the cruel world
from all the pain and suffering
I've grown to know so well
So I wear the mask

Rebuilding

Meeting new people
making new friends
feeling like a stranger
looking down hallways
that never end

Staring at the clock
trying not to dose off
doodling sketches
dreaming of being
anywhere but here

Eating lunch
with your friends
the food is gross
but the conversation
is all good

Hanging out
after school
in the parking lot
is now cool
since you have a car

Going on dates
with good lookin guys
friends get pushed aside
because he's more important
than they are

Breakin up
is hard
especially when
you ditched your friends
so now there's no one

Repairing relationships
used to be easier
than asking for forgiveness
but you burnt the bridge
and it's time to rebuild

Listening to Him

Listening to Him
Hearing the laughter of a friend
Feeling the love around you
Sensing it soon will end

Listening to a song
Hearing the voice of an angel
Feeling the flow of the music
Sensing nothing can go wrong

Listening to him play
Hearing the song of love
Feeling the chords in the music
Sensing safety in it all

Listening for the song
Hearing nothing but silence
Feeling empty and broken
Sensing it's all over

Listening for a voice
Hearing voices, but none his
Feeling alone and distant
Sensing nothing but pain

Listening to the pain
Hearing it all around you
Feeling the sorrow of all
Sensing the hurt in the world

Listening to Him
Hearing His voice
Feeling His love
Sensing His power
Knowing He's real

The Girl Inside

How could you tell if she was in pain?
She showed no signs of despair.
But the pain soaked through her skin,
and it started to eat away at her soul.
Would she make it without cracking?
Could she hide the hurt inside her?
She tried to remain strong,
but how would she last?

The constant teasing from the boys,
caused her confidence to die.
She was confused, growing up was hard.
She knew of no one to console.
How could life be so hard,
when life was just barely mature?
Was all her pain really worth it?
It seemed too much for her to bear.

Could she ease her pain?
Could she make it on her own?
She questioned all her morals,
she even questioned her faith.
She had always been a good girl,
but now times were getting tough.
How would she make it through,
when she was all she had?

Then one day, she met a boy,
who understood her pain.
He made her feel important,
she had never felt this way.
Slowly he helped her rebuild,
her life so she would be happy.
His words meant so much to her,
even more than anyone's had before.

So as her life changed for the better,
she thought of him each day.
So even when they parted ways,
he was always in her heart.
How could she ever forget,
the boy who had saved her soul?

Why...When...And...

Why are there days
When it's all bright and sunny
And all you can do is cry?

Why does it hurt
When someone else fails
And you feel it's your failure?

Why is it painful
When you don't hear from a friend
And you know they're just busy?

Why is it hard
When you watch the love around you
And you don't feel it inside?

Why do you still laugh
When there's nothing funny
And you just can't help it?

Why do you smile
When you feel all the pain inside
And you hide it from the world?

Why do you cry
When things could be worse
And you can't hold back the tears?

Why are you hurting
When God is there?
And he always has been
And he always will be.

Yesterdays

Breathe in and know where you are
Must in the air
So much dust
Where I keep my secrets
Awake the memories that hide deep in the room
Reluctantly the feelings escape
In a time when I have no time
I'm seeing tears on my memories
Today, the todays that became yesterdays
If you don't take time to remember
Long files of memories could be gone
The pictures are faded, but I remember
When I was happy just being with a friend
Closing the albums, I go back to when I was
Six and full of zest and excitement
Has that child disappeared, or is she still there
Time has made her shy; she's only shown to few
Because my life has changed, now she hides

A World Without Love

Imagine a world without love
Did you feel different
Oh it was awful
Lord, I cannot live without love
In a world without love
I feel nothing
You have more wars
Watch a world without love
Take its own life
Yeah, it's not pretty
Remember when there was love
I am in a world full of love
On any day at any time
Everywhere I look there is love
Sunrise and sunset, both full of love

Innocence

Melodies called out to me
Could you hear them
Only few understood
Little children love to hear the sounds
Their innocence beckons
They squeal and squirm
Like bolts of lightning
Sweet songs keep calling
Where do they come from
I kept them close to me
Like an entity of my own self
Can I still hear them
For I am getting older
Could my innocence be gone
But is that why I heard the songs
The harmonies were intricate
The song was so clear
But can I still hear it?